Have you ever resigned from something? Submitted a resignation? What does resignation mean to you?
From a young age I liked to be involved. I liked to be in charge, be in leadership and put big events together. I always found a way to pull things off. There was no way things weren’t going to happen and I liked to go big. Over the years I’ve had friends and family that pitched in to help make the visions I had happen. Quitting, giving up or settling for less wasn’t even in my vocabulary.
Throughout my boy’s lives I’ve been the same way and have committed to many things over the last 23 years. Once again, it’s been family and friends that stepped up and helped make things happen. I’ve always said that I’ve been blessed by having great people around me so I can’t take the credit for the things that have happened
As I’ve shared in previous blogs, September 2018 was a big turning point for me. I made the decision to resign from some positions that I loved and been involved with for years. I found myself saying then and even over the last couple of years that I had never resigned from anything and the first time I had resigned from anything.
This morning I had a situation that has been on my mind for quite awhile. It’s a situation I’ve struggled with for awhile and I found myself saying to myself, “I’ve got to resign myself to accept the facts and take the emotion out of it. I need to accept the inevitable.”
As I thought about this I found myself recognizing that I’ve resigned a lot of things in my life. In fact 2 years ago wasn’t my first resignation. It actually was the beginning of acknowledging my feelings and truly doing what was best for me.
In fact 2 years ago wasn’t my first resignation. It actually was the beginning of acknowledging my feelings and truly doing what was best for me.
So, 2 years ago I applied the first definition, but throughout my life the second definition has been a part of my life. Due to the abuse at an early age and over the years there were many patterns and beliefs in my life that I accepted that were undesirable, but I felt were inevitable.
These are some of the things that I had resigned myself to at an early age and believed until this year and honestly I’m still working on. As my counselor has said, I’m sincerely rewiring my brain after all of these years of a specific belief system.
I’m so grateful for the things that happened this morning that caused me to pause and really think about resignation. I’m grateful the situation this morning turned out better than I thought and I didn’t have to resign to accept something that would cause me to be very sad.
So, I ask the question again? Have you ever resigned? Have you ever submitted a resignation - especially to yourself?
The resignation I submitted 2 years ago was very painful and honestly still hurts, but the resignation that’s hurt the most are the ones I accepted for myself for all of these years. The undesirable that was inevitable is not the inevitable and I don’t have to accept the undesirable. I’m grateful I’m not accepting my own resignation anymore - I’m worth much more than that.
A wife and mother of 4 boys and 2 daughter-in-law, I have spent my entire adult life devoted to my family. I have been busy in their schools, supporting them in all of their school work, sporting events, activities, etc. I spent years heavily involved in the PTA, church callings, etc Life for me has always been overwhelmingly busy. While I thought this was my sanity, the truth is it masked issues - real issues - that I needed to work on to gain true sanity. I am sharing my story in this blog. I do this so that I might be able to help other women find their true sanity