 Meet someone Start to get to know each other Become quick friends Start hanging out Spending more time with each other Building a trust Start opening up even more Rely on each other more Sometimes a relationship starts to form - deeper relationship There are differences and disagreements Think you’ve worked through them Keep moving forward with the relationship More mistakes made Told no more - actions speak louder than words - show me that you want this relationship You want the relationship to work so bad No more mistakes  Tread lightly Strive to do things perfectly to show that you care - that they mean alot to you Things are alright, but things are just not the same No matter how hard you try to be enough, things are irreparable Eventually they leave Whether its emotional and/or physically - their gone You just couldn’t be good enough Couldn’t change enough to repair the damage you created You shared too much Relied on them too much Let down your guard, showed who you really were, struggles and it was too much  Gather yourself Try to heal your heart Tenderly start walking forward again They come back into your life Say we can be friends You jump at the opportunity You’re heart hadn’t healed And now its healed They are back And then. . . You fail again Make a mistake They remind you what happened last time Oh, that’s right I’m willing to change myself  Be cautious, tread lightly, bend over backwards Give all you’ve got Because it’s more important to have them in your life Prove your worthy of their love Instead of them leaving And dealing with a broken heart Because it truly feels like you could die from a broken heart And then. . . A mistake too big to fix, to repair - you messed up again They are gone Or put rules on you for them to come back So, tuck those feelings away Pray with all your might PLEASE help me die I can’t handle the broken heart I’m too scared to make a mistake again Can I trust again? Will I ever be enough for someone to really love me?  I look back over the years
All I’ve ever wanted Was someone to love me Love me and accept me But who am I? If I can’t love myself Don’t know who I am How can anyone else love me? So, I let people in Trust Open Up Share my fears Promises they won’t ever leave Abandonment is my worst fear The roots are sooooo deep Will I ever get better Promises made I won’t leave I’ll always love you I’ll always care about you You’ll always have a place in my life What does that mean? Until something or someone else comes along? I’m in 10th place and once something else is added I’m dropped off Life changes I cling to relationships
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Cheri HardmanA wife and mother of 4 boys and 2 daughter-in-law, I have spent my entire adult life devoted to my family. I have been busy in their schools, supporting them in all of their school work, sporting events, activities, etc. I spent years heavily involved in the PTA, church callings, etc Life for me has always been overwhelmingly busy. While I thought this was my sanity, the truth is it masked issues - real issues - that I needed to work on to gain true sanity. I am sharing my story in this blog. I do this so that I might be able to help other women find their true sanity Archives
April 2022
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