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My Journey

Desire to be Loved

6/25/2021

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Meet someone
Start to get to know each other
Become quick friends
Start hanging out
Spending more time with each other
Building a trust 
Start opening up even more
Rely on each other more
Sometimes a relationship starts to form - deeper relationship
There are differences and disagreements
Think you’ve worked through them
Keep moving forward with the relationship
More mistakes made
Told no more - actions speak louder than words - show me that you want this relationship
You want the relationship to work so bad
No more mistakes

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Tread lightly
Strive to do things perfectly to show that you care - that they mean alot to you
Things are alright, but things are just not the same
No matter how hard you try to be enough, things are irreparable
Eventually they leave
Whether its emotional and/or physically - their gone
You just couldn’t be good enough
Couldn’t change enough to repair the damage you created
You shared too much
Relied on them too much
Let down your guard, 
showed who you really were, 
struggles and it was too much

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Gather yourself
Try to heal your heart
Tenderly start walking forward again
They come back into your life
Say we can be friends
You jump at the opportunity
You’re heart hadn’t healed
And now its healed
They are back
And then. . .
You fail again
Make a mistake
They remind you what happened last time
Oh, that’s right
I’m willing to change myself

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Be cautious, tread lightly, bend over backwards
Give all you’ve got
Because it’s more important to have them in your life
Prove your worthy of their love
Instead of them leaving 
And dealing with a broken heart
Because it truly feels like you could die from a broken heart
And then. . .
A mistake too big to fix, to repair - you messed up again
They are gone
Or put rules on you for them to come back
So, tuck those feelings away
Pray with all your might
PLEASE help me die
I can’t handle the broken heart
I’m too scared to make a mistake again
Can I trust again?
Will I ever be enough for someone to really love me?

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I look back over the years
All I’ve ever wanted
Was someone to love me
Love me and accept me
But who am I?
If I can’t love myself
Don’t know who I am
How can anyone else love me?
So, I let people in
Trust
Open Up
Share my fears
Promises they won’t ever leave
Abandonment is my worst fear
The roots are sooooo deep
Will I ever get better
Promises made
I won’t leave
I’ll always love you
I’ll always care about you
You’ll always have a place in my life
What does that mean?
Until something or someone else comes along?
I’m in 10th place and once something else is added I’m dropped off
Life changes
I cling to relationships

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    Cheri Anderson Hardman

    ​Cheri Hardman

    A wife and mother of 4 boys and 2 daughter-in-law, I have spent my entire adult life devoted to my family. I have been busy in their schools, supporting them in all of their school work, sporting events, activities, etc. I spent years heavily involved in the PTA, church callings, etc Life for me has always been overwhelmingly busy. While I thought this was my sanity, the truth is it masked issues - real issues - that I needed to work on to gain true sanity. I am sharing my story in this blog. I do this so that I might be able to help other women find their true sanity

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